Another Message on Loneliness Presented by Pastor Joseph Prince

I count it divine that I came across this the day after I wrote my post on loneliness. Here is an 8min snippet from a message preached by Pastor Joseph Prince.

If you are not familiar with him and his teachings on the true gospel of Grace and Truth, you can find out more by visiting 

To read my original post dealing with my journey on the topic, click HERE.

Cheers and May Jesus bless you!

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Loneliness: Sharpest Tool for Honing Clarity

For a moment there, I thought about getting all philosophical about this topic, putting together a whole lot of fancy words, name dropping famous people you most likely learned about (and then forgot about) while striving towards your Bachelor’s degree…

But then I thought, what for?

You don’t have to go to school, gain loads of debt (if you didn’t have scholarships) to dance with loneliness.

Loneliness is like a pimple, NOBODY wants them, but EVERYBODY gets them every now and again.

(You can insert my lonely sigh right HERE.) So, anyway, I recently had a birthday, turning 33 years of age. Like all of my birthdays, unless I have planned some 1391647885yh5p4shindig of excitement, the day goes by with very little fanfare.

No, its not that I am unloved. Its just that my birthday is on the 5th of July which means my family views the 4th as a 2 for 1 kind of deal. Because the USA is having a birthday party with fireworks, I get the shaft, they say the cake is for me.

I even had to argue with my 5 year old niece about when my birthday actually was. Her response, “Actually, (said slowly in case I couldn’t understand) your birthday is today.”

Now, this is not my reason for loneliness. My loneliness came as a result of all the change and separation that has been taking place in my life.

Just last week (among other things that have happened) a friend I have known since I was 13, packed up with her husband and kids and moved out of state.

We knew this day was coming, and in my mind I thought, “Well, she lives only a few miles away now and I hardly get to see her, so it won’t be that different.”

Boy was I wrong. I can feel the distance…and in feeling that distance I begin to look around and realize my once full room has slowly emptied.

Where was I when this was taking place? Why am I noticing it now?


When the proverbial room is full, the windows are blocked, but when there is nothing occupying the space but you alone, there is a lot of light shining in. You finally get to see what is really going on around you, inside of you.

In all of this, in my bouts with wanting to cry for missing my home girl, in my realizing I now more than ever would like to settle down (This I have long surrendered to the King of my heart, Yeshua Jesus, as He orders my steps) in me taking the time to admit I don’t want to do things just because I can, I find myself lonely of company, lonely of ideas, lonely of sound…lonely of comfort.

It hurts…but out of pain comes beauty and new purpose. This is the gift of Clarity. When you trust God with your life, you have to trust that even these times, these moments, these tears are for a greater purpose. Sometimes He has to bring us to empty to fill us up with newness. He does give beauty for ashes (Isaiah 61:3)

That room, that empty room I see in my head, its not ugly, it is clean, and fresh and waiting to be filled. But I have to allow my heart to own (And I mean really own) the need for the filling.

33 has purchased me clarity. It has brought me to the precipice of change, birthed out of the reality of need…the need grown out of loneliness. One does not pray for things that one does not recognize are missing.

But if there is nothing else that I can give thanks for in all of this, I have to give thanks in knowing that my Savior walks along in this with me.

*Psalm 139:1-18 

1You have searched me, Lord, and you know me. 2You know when I sit and when I rise; you perceive my thoughts from afar. 3You discern my going out and my lying down; you are familiar with all my ways. 4Before a word is on my tongue you, Lord, know it completely. 5You hem me in behind and before, and you lay your hand upon me. 6Such knowledge is too wonderful for me, too lofty for me to attain. 7Where can I go from your Spirit? Where can I flee from your presence? 8If I go up to the heavens, you are there; if I make my bed in the depths, you are there. 9If I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle on the far side of the sea, 10even there your hand will guide me, your right hand will hold me fast. 11If I say, “Surely the darkness will hide me and the light become night around me,” 12even the darkness will not be dark to you; the night will shine like the day, for darkness is as light to you. 13For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. 14I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. 15My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place, when I was woven together in the depths of the earth. 16Your eyes saw my unformed body; all the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be. 17How precious to me are your thoughts,a God! How vast is the sum of them! 18Were I to count them, they would outnumber the grains of sand— when I awake, I am still with you.”

Yeshua Jesus  has brought me to this lonely place of Clarity to show me the changes He intends to make. I have come to believe that Jesus shows us things in our lives because He wants us to partner with Him in the change He is bringing.

He has brought me here to remind me that He makes all things new. He does this for all of those who call upon His Name. He brought me to this lonely place to remind me that HE loves me best and He loves me most and no matter how empty the room my seem, I am never alone, and He does intend to fill it!

Praise be to His Holy Name!

*Psalm taken from

I pray my journey here has encouraged you even a little bit. I hope, I hope, I hope. Keep smiling friends 🙂


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A Few More Liebster Questions To Be Answered

Hello again! In response to my nominations of others, I was given the chance to answer a few more magical questions, thanks to Kima from the AND Carrie Ann from


So here are those golden questions, and my answers:

  1. Who inspires you the most in life? People who express genuine kindness for no other reason but being kind.
  2. What is your favorite genre that you just can’t seem to write yourself? I wouldn’t say it is my favorite, but in light of my desire to give romance a real try, I have been reading a lot of historical romance (Clean Reads) and although I really enjoy them, I have to say I don’t think I have the patience to do the research for accuracy there.
  3. What program(s) do you use to create/write your stories? I don’t use any programs. Music however gets me in the heads of my characters and links me with their emotions. I also find (as odd as this may seem) that for some of my story lines, playing games like Settlers of Catan are very helpful.
  4. If you only had one book to read, what would it be (excluding the Bible/Religious books)? Howl’s Moving Castle! Three copies, plus the movie and several reads, just cause is how it has been so I would definitely defer there. The movie is beautiful via the imagination of Hayao Miyazaki, but his interpretation of the true characters is of Howl and Sophie, is way off. Those two were deliciously self-centered and ridiculous, especially Howl. His reason and method for “saving the day” in the end in the book is hilarious and a far cry from the Howl of the movie.
  5. What would be your dream job?  Honestly, to be a successful storyteller and writer.
  6. Morning person or night owl? How does this effect your daily schedule? Weirdly enough I am a mix of both. I tend to not get to bed before 4am but if I were to wake up as 6am I am very chipper.
  7. If your life was a movie, do you think you’d be the main protagonist? Hmmm, maybe the ant-hero on the side.
  8. Have you ever written to/talked to one of your favorite authors? Who? What did you get out of it? YES! Tamara Leigh! and it was WONDERFUL! She really encouraged me to keep doing what I am doing and even followed my blog. She has a blog here too!
  9. Which of your senses would you be willing to give up? None. Losing one would take me several steps back from being super human!
  10. What is your favorite online resource for writing/blogging/what you do? It is a library app for downloading Ebooks. Why do I say this? Because the more I read the more inspired I become!

Alrighty! Now with the questions presented by Anniehow!

1. When you were a child, what did you want to grow up to be?  Have you fulfilled that dream? I wanted to be a lawyer and an architect. I no longer have any desire to practice law BUT I am planning on getting my masters in Architecture. Writing and art were always things I just did but treasure.

2. Who was your favorite teacher and why? I don’t think I had a favorite teacher. I have been blessed to have lots of really excellent ones. Some of them I still keep in contact with.

3. Do you have any musical talents, and what are they? I am musically inclined. I actually sang my way through undergrad. We did mostly classical music, but if I were ever to become a singer for a profession, it would be worship music with a folk flare. 

4. What decade, that you have lived through, is your favorite and why? I have only lived in three so my choices are limited. That being said I think my current decade is my favorite because I have learned so much from the ones behind me.

5. When was the last time you really laughed and what was it that made you laugh? I actually laugh quite a bit so I really can’t say what was the last thing that made me laugh apart for just having sheer joy!

6. Do you like or dislike surprises?  Why or why not? Surprises are tricky things. I like random thoughtful acts and I like to be the recipient BUT I never quite know how to respond to them sooo.

7. What is your favorite holiday and why? My favorite holiday is Passover! I love the story of redemption. I love changing up my seder menu with a theme. (I am a Messianic Jew/ Jewish Christian)  So I am overjoyed to see how Yeshua Jesus fulfilled this holyday. 

8. What is your proudest accomplishment? I don’ think I have yet to achieve my proudest accomplishment. Their is still a lot of life ahead. 

9. Shuffle the songs on your iPod or Phone, which song comes up? Or what is your favorite song and why? Right now my favorite song is a song by JJ Heller called “I dream of you.” The song is below. I love the piano in this song and the words. It just bright and cheery!

10. If you were a super-hero, what powers would you have and why? I would be able to manipulate matter and time. Why? Because my possibilities would be limitless! 

These were some great questions. I am really glad I got to answer them!

Cheers to you all!

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Getting Back on Track: Musings For the Future

Every now and again, I feel like I get a bit discombobulated with the juggling of the mundane things of life, sudden unforeseen demands, and surfing the wave of organic creativity.

1421164706sgnzyI like to have a plan, where everything has a place. I like order.

One of the things that seem to knock this girl off track is the idea that just because things are going according to MY plan that I am off track. I couldn’t be more wrong.

Being a person of faith in Messiah Yeshua (Jesus Christ) I know that my footsteps are ordered. I know that as He says in Jeremiah, His plans for me are good. So even when things look messy and out of bounds, that doesn’t mean that they are.

Starting over with my blog Novel may not have been part of my plan, but it will be good for me. I believe that.


  • Well, I want to anticipate my next moves for the coming week. I plan to spend next week reading through the 44 chapters I have written for Ascension Graveyard, keeping what is viable and bidding farewell to what is not.
  • I want to reconvene with Musing Monday’s Writing Prompts. I miss those.
  • I also want to start creating other Writing Prompts that I did earlier on last year. Those were so much fun and the results were amazing.
  • I want to honor the Quarters (Click HERE to read more about that) of time dedicated to my art and free writing, which are the backbone of this blog.
  • I just want to inspire others, and do so with a smile and ease.
  • I want to follow the beating of my heart and create and focus on what it is in tuned to in whichever given moment. This is listening.

What I am saying is that getting off track is often a perspective thing. My perspective has been a little off, but I praise God I am in my right mind again.

See you next week!


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Stay out of the shadows: A Quote…Inspired by the Late Whitney Houston

“I decided long ago, never to walk in anyone’s shadow…because its much more fulfilling to be my original self AND I get far more vitamin D that way, which we all know is a good thing.”

13605212689fv2zWhitney Houston was on to something here besides going for the record gold when she sang the song, “The Greatest Love of All,” written by Linda Creed and Michael Masser.

Looking to our heroes and sheroes for inspiration is part of being human. Its what gives us the fuel to press towards a higher mark and prize, but hiding in the dark, cold, musty shadow of someone else, well…that’s just a waste.

Yes we are to learn from others, but to only achieve the same level of artistic greatness (or any kind of achievement) as the person before you is not to do the world a favor but it is to reinvent the wheel.

It’s just plain wrong.

To stay in the shadows is to get lost in the shuffle of mediocrity.

Originality is a precious gift from Yeshua/Jesus/God. Not a single snowflake that falls, and there are A LOT of them, are the same.

They each have their own glory and majesty. This truth holds true for us as well. God has given us our own voice, our own vision, our own something special, that brings its own light into the dark that is often the world we live in.

So yes, admire and glean from those who came before you. Pay attention to the steps they took to do what they have done, but NEVER, and I mean NEVER, lose yourself in the cold dead place that is their shadow.

Take your time, but when it is your turn, shine baby shine!

Be you. Be original, and dance on the wind of creative vision and bring this world something great!


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Words…use them wisely

Life is more than words, but words do make up our lives.

Have you ever considered how the simplest of words can change a person’s attitude either for the good or bad? Even the words spoken without verbalization have such great power.

Consider a person who feels utterly alone, ignored and unseen. Let a stranger smile at them, genuinely smile at them, and that non-verbal interaction, those ‘words’ smelled out without sound, can push away the dark clouds in the recipient’s day.  13852495177jh1x

God created the whole of creation with just His Words (Genesis 1). He spoke and it become. Yeshua (Jesus Christ) is the Word made flesh (John 1).

He, too spoke and things happened. He spoke to the fig tree and it died (Mark 11:12-25.) He spoke to Lazarus and he was resurrected from the dead, (John 11: 38-44.)

Being a person of faith I am compelled not to take language and words lightly even though I often stumble, firing verbal bullets into the dark, careless of the casualties.

How do you use your words; verbal and non-verbal? What message are you sending to others? How are you shaping your world and the world of others with what you say or with what you fail to say?

Sure, this is definitely a soul-thing that I am talking about, but it also has to do with our Creative Expressions. What message are you intending to get across to your readers, your watchers and your listeners?

Within every story there is an undertone, a hidden message that stays with the audience even though it may never have been outwardly mentioned. The message of courage is a regular theme found in many novels.

No other actual says “this story is about courage” while the story is being read, but the message is clear, the mental expression is read loud in clear if the author has done their job.

I raise these questions not just as an artist, a writer, a reader, a listener, and a watcher, but I raise them because of some of the mountains that I am facing as a human being just trying to relate to those around me.

We have such great power to say things with our mouths, but our eyes and body language scream words much louder, which ultimately leave the greatest impression. Its like telling someone you love them while rolling your eyes and sneering at them. I guarantee you the sneer had more of an impression than the verbal exchange.

Consider your words. Consider what you are saying in your music, your visual art, your writing. Say what you mean and mean what you say. Consider the power that you hold as the creator of something wonderful and use your power wisely.


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Going With the Flow

So I don’t know if you have noticed lately, but my blog entries have been less freewrite short stories and more poetry, less focused art and more the random doodle (I have some I meant to post and just simply forgot…it happens…you understand.)

For a minute there I was getting myself all worked up because I thought I was not upholding my end of things. I was not honoring my Quarters (15 minute burst of creativity…follow this LINK to a post highlighting more on that) but when I took a step back I realized that was not true. OLYMPUS DIGITAL CAMERA

What I have been doing is going with the natural flow of my creativity. Let’s be honest, working on a full length blog novel does go well beyond the 15min written work and poetry counts as well.

I have had to take a moment and refocus, completely denying the regimented, controlling attitude that stifles true creative power.

It could be that with the shifting of seasons that the tide of my inspiration and voice is changing as well. I am all about creative evolution. Expression that does not change becomes dull.

So what is my point?

Well I like to keep you all in the “know.” I want to be a woman of my word always. That is the point of this blog, to tell you, or maybe to just convince myself, that I am indeed creating, I am still growing, and it is all so very beautiful in its shifting expression.

Here are some reminders that I keep right next to my computer. Who knows, they may help you relax a bit and keep on plucking away freely and authentically. Follow this LINK to see the blog entry.



The First Steps to Success

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We as humans have a bad habit of measuring success by all of the wrong things. We think money, material gain, perishable things that cushion our lives somehow are the marks of success. To me, success is about “action.” Your action could be simply being still and trusting God to do the most amazing things in your life. Your action could be research your next project. Your success could be simply getting out of the bed in the morning at a decent time.

The point is when we push ourselves beyond the walls of our comfort, and we take the steps into the unknown seeking change, THAT is success. This is the pathway to successfulness.



Just a Quick Word…on Quilting

My bad. Its been too many days away which has certainly not been my intention. Do charge it to my head and not my heart. What has been going on? Well I have been “quilting” with words and really just coming out of hibernation mode with everything else in my life. What is “Quilting” with words? Quilting with words is something that I think most writers do they just don’t call it such. As I said before I have over 90 different story lines that have yet to be completed, or in the case of many, started.

Quilting is where I write down scenes for a novel, the action the dialogue. I write it as it would appear in the story. This scene may be somewhere in the middle of the piece. The next scene I write may be close to the beginning. I store these scenes in a document and when my muse is ready to sit down and actually write that particular story from start to finish. At that point I take each written scene or “square of words” and piece them together in an order that builds the perfect story.

Since freewriting has been such a creative burst and a lot of my characters have been yelling at me, I have had a lot of typing and imagining to do.

So that is why I have been away. I promise to do better in the future. Actually I will write about my next plan of action in this regard in a future post.

Cheers until then!