I didn’t sleep last night, well hardly a wink, barely 4 hours if you want to get technical. It wasn’t at all that I was being tormented by thoughts, but I have been thinking and praying a LOT.
I was up, bright-eyed, laying in the moon kissed darkness, trembling with anxious hope. I whispered a few words into God’s ears in between my turning, waiting for an answer to a question I have been asking for the better part of 8 years.
Last night, He answered and that answer released such joy in the heart of me that I truly feel as if I have been born again, rebooted, starting from zero!
An awesome weight and burden was broken off of my shoulders, and now as I stare forward into the bright horizon, I can’t help but surge with the effervescent joy of “what next?”
So many possibilities lie ahead now that I am free from the “obligation” that weighed on me. And with each step I will gain “me” back. I will heal.
It still seems so unreal, but the feeling in the wellspring of my soul far out shines any doubt.
I realize now that sometimes “Plan B” is infinitely greater than “Plan A,” especially when God has His Hand in it. I am excited for “Plan B,” and all that comes along with it!”
God has redrawn the boarders of my “promised,” land for the land I stand on now is so good! And all I can think to do is run forward! The scenery in my soul is akin to the the aftermath of a summer storm.
The sky is suddenly a sapphire blue, a welcome contrast to the ominous dark. Big white clouds dot the horizon and the sun makes the water that lays as evidence of rain storms and struggle, look like streams of gold at my feet.
My path looks like streets of gold…heaven.
Alas, I will take my time instead of breaking forward, ponder my plans and desires for my future, and enjoy the wonder of what lies ahead.
To God be the glory!
~Poiema, Poetry in Motion