It’s not that we need or even want to be rich. It’s simply a matter of being in control of our resources, our opportunities, and our emotions.” ~ Bishop T.D Jakes “Reposition Yourself- Living Life Without Limits.”
One of the toughest things that I have encountered with taken the official step into allowing my art to be my bread winner, is having peace with the process that it requires in order to create something that I feel comfortable with sharing/selling.
Often times, the emotional battle that comes with being an artist tends to be the very saw that cuts the legs right out from underneath us. One day we love what we have created, we are confident, and ready to share it with the world, while in the very next breath we are punching holes through it as if it is the most embarrassing mess we have ever made.
Deciding to let one’s art speak for itself is difficult. Having the confidence to keep producing even though it doesn’t seem at all that a harvest is in the near future, is very emotionally taxing.
But I have to hold on to the belief that it is all worth it.
As Bishop said, and I put it in my own words, this is not a matter of becoming rich, this is a matter of self sustainability, not being strangled or tugged between “need” and “want”, not being limited in opportunities because of limited resources, and not limiting one’s self because you have allowed your emotions to limit your production.
Many people on the outside do not understand this struggle. They don’t understand what goes into writing a novel or creating art. The idea of living off of art is more baffling to them than it is to us, and most people on the other side of the “creative fence” have no idea where they have misplaced their poker faces when you explain to them that you have turned in your 9 to 5 in order to pursue the craft of expanding our art.
It’s tough…but again it is worth it.
I just encourage anyone who has taken the leap to step out there and not just take a slice of the “pie” but to bake your own, to not give up. Seeds in the soil take time to grow, and lots of watering, even if the water is produced by our own tears.
As the Psalmist said:
Psalm 126:5-6 “5Those who sow in tears shall reap with joyful shouting.
6He who goes to and fro weeping, carrying his bag of seed,
Shall indeed come again with a shout of joy, bringing his sheaves with him.”
Just keep pressing on, and don’t give up. The race is not give to the swift but he who endures to the end. (Ecclesiastes 9:11)