The other day I was sitting in front of my television, watching some show on HGTV, eating a plate full of room temperature leftovers (good leftovers nonetheless,) when a thought popped in my head:
You will never know where you are going if you never take a step.”
The thought seemed simple enough. For, as I was watching HGTV, eating room temperature leftovers, I was also thinking about my blog and my writing career, and my art, and all the other things I had planned to do in 2014 which seemed to get derailed from every angle.
I will be honest, Ascension Graveyard (For those of you who are just now tuning in, AG is my blog novel that I started writing in June…it is still a work in process and progress,) has given me some reason for pause.
I feel like it might turn out to be a far longer novel than I planned for it to be, and coming to terms with that has been difficult. I have said this before. But even with my previous mention I feel like the thought alone has caused me to stop my motions.
What do I want for this novel? What do I want for this blog, for my art, for myself? Where am I going?I want a lot and sometimes I feel like the chasm between here and there is just so wide. But that only leads to the next question.
How do I know it is wide unless I take a step? Its like looking into the rippling waters of a pool and trusting my first impression that the waters aren’t that deep when in reality they might actually be 12ft deep.
The realization that I have come to, is that none of it really matters unless I just step forward. We all must step forward. Sure, we will reach moments where we look at how far we have come, scan over our maps and wonder if we have gone the wrong direction.
But even if we have gone the wrong direction, that is not cause for us to set up shop in the place of the unknown just for fear of having lost our way.
So what you may not know where you want to end up exactly. Maybe the answers will only come once you start walking.
As I write this, soooo many biblical pictures come to mind; Abraham being told to leave his home by God and go to a place He would show him. (Genesis 12:1) God didn’t tell him wear exactly he was to go, he just said go, take a step of faith. Believe.
Then there is Psalm 119:105 which says, “Your Word is a lamp unto my feet, and a light unto my path.” That to me indicates that more times than not the steps ahead of our current footfalls are shrouded in the dark, but we have got to take another step to discover that which lays hidden from view.
For me, I have just got to keep pressing forward, keep stepping through the darkness and trusting the Light to make my way plain. If I want this blog to continue to nurture my creative growth, I have got to keep blogging. If I want my art to stretch itself out and grow, then I have got to give it a platform to do so.
If I want Ascension Graveyard to be all that I believe it can be, then I have got to keep writing this daggum first draft! (LOL all you writers out there understand that torrid relationship one has with their first draft.)
So getting back to the thought I had, it is true that we will never know where we are going if we never take the first step…that is unless you plan on going nowhere.
Press forward! Keep dreaming! And keep seeking!