If you haven’t already noticed, I am notorious for liking my creativity to motherhood. I often speak of my creation as my children, each with their own personality, some more giving than others, while some are just out right unruly.
Through the span of this blogging year, my creativity has produced many fruits that I cannot help but to be grateful for. My spirit, soul and mind have truly been fed and exercised which is what I started this blog for in the first place.
But then November 2014 came along and it has seemed as if everything is at a sudden standstill. Yes, I did finally come into my own branding, which has also been a year long endeavor, but now with that aside it almost feels like I have nothing to say BUT I have so many eggs in my basket.
I will admit that I have had this anxious feeling while sitting in my creative silence. What to do? What to do? What to do? If I could compare this feeling to anything, it would be the quiet before the storm, that eerie stillness that overtakes everything right before all chaos breaks loose.
I wonder if that is what it is like for a mother at the end of her pregnancy (see, here is that mother-creativity thing again.) Does she feel anxious while she is holding her fully grown child in her womb, waiting for the day they will come forth? Does she tip-toe throughout each day wondering if this day is the day?
I have a basket full of eggs (creative projects) they feel as if they are being extremely quite, but I know and feel something moving. I just don’t know what it is. I can almost hear them whispering amongst themselves.
I know the direction to take with them, I even know what to say but part of me seems to be holding back for some reason. Its like I am standing outside of the the double dutch ropes, waiting for the right rhythm to come along for me to jump right in. (I have never double dutched before mind you 😉 But I am sure you get the point.)
I totally intend to push forward, but keep a keep eye and ear open to what my creativity is saying.
Do you ever have this feeling with your projects? Do you ever feel like something is about to break forth, but you just don’t know when? If so, what do you do in the meantime?
I look forward to hearing from you.