We all know the little ditty “April showers bring May flowers.” We come out of winter (those of us who live above the Equator or who live in 4 season regions) only to find ourselves skipping between sunshine and rain, smiles and frowns, anxiety and hope. Is the winter really over or is nature just playing tricks on me?
Before I go on let me just say rain is such an amazing thing. We often frown when it comes and we had been hoping for sunshine, but the sound of rain is so soothing. Its in the tremble of the water droplets and the crack and roll of thunder and lightening that we…rest. We calm down inwardly and are given moments of repose to think. The rain washes away but it also breathes new life…think on that for a while.
Understanding creative voice is dependent upon listening to it when it speaks.”
This April has given me so many of ups and downs and ins and outs. I have battled with time, struggled to maintain the creative footing that I won so many months ago, and I have to say my fingers are bleeding from grappling with the realities of the world and the “duties” that come with adulthood.
Nevertheless, I have won the battle.
My voice is a chorus on its own.”
During this month I have been blessed to come to the realization about my artist’s voice. (Yes, victories do indeed happen in the midst of sketchy transitions.) This is an amazing thing because discovering my voice is one of the main legs on which this blog stands.
I want to know what I “sound” like as a visual artist. I have to say I have come to accept that I am not just a little bit country and a little bit rock and roll as the Osmonds put it, but I am a creative menagerie. My view and expression of artistic and creative self are very diverse…this is my voice.
I am so glad that I have come to realize that now.
Months ago I had a conversation with a friend about my search for my artistic voice and she seemed annoyed that I was even considering stifling my eclectic ways. She asked me what was wrong with having so much variety?
I ruminated on her view of things and her position for a very long time. But it was when I watched a video that highlighted the artist Henri Matisse that I came to a grand revelation about myself as an artist, and that is, my voice is a chorus on its own.
With the prompting of the Holy Spirit, I began to gather more information and books about Henri Matisse and with great gladness and a refreshing in my mind I found we, Henri and I, have a lot in common when it comes to our eclectic ways of expressing our visions.
Matisse had the same kind of voice, an artistic chorus playing in his heart. (Not calling myself the next Matisse but you get what I am saying.)When you look at his work you see several different styles and expressions. He didn’t hold back. He didn’t clip his own wings just to fit where he supposed he should fit. No, he just created and he followed the music, whichever tune was playing in his artistic heart, at that given moment. He followed the natural flow of expression and each piece he produced has a presence all its own.
Even though most and or many of them look as if several different artists have produced the pieces, somehow the world just knows they are done by Matisse. The same can hold true for me and my works.
This month, I discovered that I need to be like Henri Matisse. April showers uncovered for me the reality that my voice has been singing all along. I have been creating but I have not been listening…until now.
So what does this mean for my journey?
It simply means that I have a direction (I have always had directions I have just been moving blindly…missing the forest for the trees if you will) and I have been blessed with confident peace as I move forward.
I intend to continue doing works in ball point pen because I find that this “average medium” moves me. I love the random lines that end up creating a distinctive form once I put my pens down. There is order but there remains chaotic movement which I like. This is my song…for now.
I hope to take it to the next level soon by doing more directed works with pen and other mediums. But this does not mean I won’t explore other visually creative avenues.
WHAT ELSE IS GOING ON?
Well, if you have not already noticed I have changed the look of the blog (I mentioned this in a previous entry…where I also said I will be changing it again). I have been going through some different ideas for what I would like the blog to look like in the coming future, but I have yet to settle on a design. It almost feels like trying on different pairs of shoes. One is bound to fit…eventually.
I am also sure you have noticed that I have begun to digitally frame my art pieces. I feel like the frames make the pieces, done in wrecked sketchbooks, look more solid and finished. So I shall continue with the frames as part of my brand building journey.
So there is my update for the month of April. Thanks for sticking it out with me this long. I have some exciting things in store for the coming months 😉 You will have to keep company with me a little while longer to find out.
~Dream. Imagine. Believe. Do. CONQUER!