I can’t seem to ‘see the forest for the trees’, so I will just keep my eyes on You.” ~Candice
There is no other place I would rather be than walking alongside Yeshua Jesus. But sometimes, storms blow in out of nowhere, blocking the Son’s light, and even blocking out much of the faith that seemed so readily available when there was no storm at all.
I find myself, in these moments, having to “remember my training” if you will. It is very easy to panic when a trial hits, and instead of standing your ground, you run for the hills. Lately, I have just been scratching my head.
…having done all else, stand. (Ephesians 6:13)
Confusion doesn’t help either. You feel so tossed and driven that you can’t tell up from down. In these moments it is best to simple stand…and wait on Him, and say, “Amen. Your will, not my will.”
The answer to my recent prayers, in the midst of this particular storm (and its a doozy) is to “Keep my eyes on Him.” Sounds easy enough, but I equate the difficulty of doing so sometimes to trying to keep one’s eye fixed on Jesus while looking through the peep hole of a door in the midst of a hurricane…Not saying it can’t be done, because He doesn’t ask us to do things that He hasn’t enabled us to do, just saying its been a struggle.
Romans 8:18 For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory which shall be revealed in us.
What makes the struggle even more difficult is not being able to see the beauty on the other side of the storm. I think about Peter when he walked on the water with Jesus. Peter began to sink when he took his eyes off of the Master and looked at the storm. The thing is, walking on water even in the sunshine requires our focus and gaze to be solidly fixed upon Him. (Matthew 14:22-33)
Sometimes I just want to give up and walk the other way. Not walk away from Jesus, but walk away from the battle that has caused the storm, forgetting what has been promised upon completion of enduring.
Sometimes I feel rubbed raw and the peep hole to Jesus seems to shrink.
It is only by His Grace and His under girding that I continue to stay above water and keep my eyes on Him at all. My eyes stay fixed and focused because at this point He has cupped my face and put His forehead to mine.
I meditate on Hebrews 12:1-3. For the JOY that was set before Him He DESPISED THE SHAME and ENDURED THE CROSS…for me…for all of us, even though He knew so many would not receive Him, He did it anyway.
I don’t have to like my trial. Truth is I hate it, a lot. But I have to look to Him and keep looking ahead. I have to remember the Joy that is set before me. He never said it would be easy, but He promised it would be worth it.
I have to remember that my present circumstances and pains are not even worthy to be compared to the glory that shall be revealed when this is all said and done. You have to believe this for yourself as well.
You have probably heard many believers say, “I am going through.” We have to keep going to make it through. As I encourage myself not to faint, I also encourage you. Your trial is a road not the destination. Victory is ours if we just keep our eyes fixed on Him and not let go of the hope and promise, for our hope will not be failed.
Keep your eyes on Him and keep seeking His kingdom first. Everything else will fall into place, just as He said it would. (Matthew 6:33)
Psalm 20:5 May we shout for Joy in your Victory, arrayed by standards in the Name of our God. May the Lord fulfill your every wish.”
~Poiema, Poetry in Motion